Mommy Says

6/6/14

Mommy says I’m really sick.

My body doesn’t work right.

Mommy says if she had one wish

She’d save my sweet and broken life.

Mommy says I will be happy

and free from tears and fear.

Mommy says I will be safe

With a body fully healed.

Mommy says I will never be alone.

God will hold my hand.

Mommy says I will find heaven

to be a sacred, beautiful land.

Mommy sings me lullabies

because I’m afraid to close my eyes.

Mommy holds me near her heart

As I see a white, descending light.

Mommy hears no more quiet cries

For I have fallen asleep under a royal sky.

Mommy prays to God for me

For God has set my spirit free.

And mommy will someday get to see

that God has always walked with me.

Kristina Bennett

The Devils and the Darkness

6/6/14

Apart from the pounding of my heart

like an arrhythmic tick-tick tock

Nothing is to be heard.

Nothing is to be seen.

I fear that if I breathe,

I will forget how to think.

The darkness is a wall

that threatens me too close,

and too far.

How far does this empty space extend?

Fear paralyzes me.

Ignorance isn’t bliss

but the possible discovery

of nothing there

would guarantee my loneliness.

And so I remain

motionless.

I have built my own cage.

I have LOST the key.

And with my helpless tears

I will remain prisoner of all my fears.

Freedom at my fingertips,

yet this jail will remain closed.

The secrets behind my deceiving lips

are the  silence  I protect my enemies with.

I cower beneath my shadow of shame

where I feel so utterly powerless.

And my monsters that tower

in long, intimidating RoWs

are the devils I worship-

are the darkness I know.

Kristina Bennett